They say it's your birthday!

(this is my actual first birthday cake, took my real name out)

For the next hour I am still the birthday girl. Today is my twenty six birthday. Twenty six years ago I was a slimy goopy alien looking baby. Not sure how much has actually changed since then. ; )

I remember being in high school admiring other's who were twenty six. Obviously at twenty six, they have everything, a husband, a career, a house, an un slimy baby, pets, once a year vacations, the whole shabang. Apparently I smoked more pot than I realized in those days, cause nothing is ever perfect, no matter the age.

And when does that "adult" feeling kick in? When I turned 23, I though maybe another year, then 24 came and went, and 25, and now 26 and still feeling like a 15 year old, not old enough to drive yet alone make serious grown up decisions. Is there a store that sells this "adult feeling" and nobody is filling me in? It has to be some form of conspiracy, I know it.

Frankly this birthday has not been good or bad. Just there. Kind of like a new haircut that you just can't figure out if it fits. There are thoughts of not being as fulfilled as I expected to be by now. I never in a million years would think that I would be having as many mental issues as I am, or that they would be holding me back to the extent that they are. I didn't think I would be living where I am, even though it was/is a very smart decision. However, knowing that I have a wonderful and amazing man to call my Hubs is something I would have never believed would happen. Honestly I thought men like him were a myth.

I have achieved some, and fallen short on others, but I guess that is what makes me, me. So happy birthday to me, and lets see how much changes when I'm 27!